So there are three words on my whiteboard right now: confidence, strategy and time management.  They are the three aspects where I am actively pursuing improvement.

First confidence, while I deeply know I can and will create my own job out of the ether I become nervous telling people that I am doing this.  I want to manage what they think of me and I need to let that go because it takes too much energy to keep up and it doesn’t serve my desires to succeed.  I’d rather they just think me crazy because we all know it takes a touch of crazy to succeed in new ways than what other and ourselves have come to expect.

Second strategy, while studying the Toltec Path to Freedom as taught by Theun Mares I encountered the idea that planning was not helpful, but having a strategy was.   I have taken that to heart because the plans that we have are only based on the information available to us at a given time.  As that changes constantly so our plans need to as well, but what lays behind those plans?  How are those plans to be understood?  The context those individual plans arise within is created by our strategy (or lack there of) in dealing with the world.  So for this business venture what is my strategy?  It is to simultaneously learn about those things that hinder my success that exist in how I view the world and those things that can help me achieve my goals that are out in the world. Internally I am using the book A Path with Heart by Jack Kornfield which has been an inspiring and challenging book on spirituality in the real world.  As for learning about internet based business I’ve been listening to Pat Flynn and his Smart Passive Income pod-casts.  They have been an amazing introduction to this world.

Third we come to time management.   In my previous work life I had and office, things I was responsible for according to a job description, a boss I was responsible too, employees to both guide and support and a whole hierarchy that might direct me to do things at any given time.  I was salary and had a lot of freedom to come and go and do as I pleased as long as what was mine got done, but I never had to ask myself, “Is meditating or blogging more productive?  Should I sleep in and work late?  Do I answer that text?  Can I afford to go to that funeral and go home to see my father both this week?  How much research on pod-casting is enough to make sure I’m neither wasting my time nor my money?”  I’m gloriously, terrifyingly free and I love it.  Until I have numbers to go by I’m going to do it mostly by feel and trust myself.

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